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who's your celebrity crush? Uhhhh it's a tie between Ryan Reynolds and Harrison Ford.

what gives you strength each morning when you wake up? A little nudging voice in the back of my head that reminds me every day is a new day and I'm the only one that can really make or break it.

where is the line between insanity and creativity? Right before you eat that yellow paint? Shit, I don't know. I think most creative minds in the past and in the present are a little off, shall we say? Maybe it's what makes them more open to seeing things in entirely new ways.

what one piece of advice would you give to a newborn? To always look for the light, even when a place seems really dark and scary.

what makes a good friend? A person you can lean on when shit's a mess, talk to when you feel ready to implode or sit in silence with when you've got no words. Someone that laughs with you more than at you and who takes you for all the good, bad and ugly that's inside of you knowing that you'll do the same for them.

which is more important to you: trust, loyalty, or love? Trust. Without it you couldn't claim to be loyal and you most certainly couldn't claim to know how to love.

what is your definition of beauty? I don't really have a definition, I don't think. If you're confident in yourself enough where you can look yourself in the mirror and like what you see, I think that's beautiful though. We could all stand to be a little less judgmental about ourselves, inside and out, that'd be a form of beauty to me.

which do you follow more: your heart or your mind? Ha...uh, more often than not it seems to be my heart. I could stand to listen to my head just a TAD more.

what's your most embarrassing moment? Errrr. I was twelve and had that swimming at the pool moment where my bikini top came undone. This is what happens when you literally have bee stings for boobs and think it's gonna stay on to make you look cool and then you end up flashing a bunch of pre-schoolers learning to swim.

if you became president, what would be the first change you'd want to make? I'm not even sure, but it'd have to do with cleaner sources of energy.

how old were you when you lost your v-card? to who? where? how underwhelmed were you? Eighteen. His name was Guthrie, I kid you not, and it was in his dorm room. But he was a goth that wanted me to call him Diablo and at the time I was mega excited 'cause he kinda reminded me of a young Trent Reznor. But he also thought finger banging was us...actually scissoring our fingers you can imagine how well the actual sex went.

who was your biggest childhood (fictional) crush? who was your biggest childhood (nonfictional) crush? Han Solo, all the way. Christian Slater during his Heathers days.

how does your taste now vary from your taste then? who's your biggest current (fictional) crush? who's your biggest current (nonfictional) crush? I don't think it does, much. I still tend to lean toward the "bad boys" with sometimes good intentions so lately it's Star-Lord and Tom Hardy.

have you worn that pink prom dress yet? No.

if not, what are you saving it for? Nothing. It's never ever being worn. Ev-er.

what was your actual prom like? who was your date? It was some Fairytale theme and my date was Andy Gardner from down the street. He tried to tell me that I should be Snow White and I told him not on his life.

what are your top three biggest personal accomplishments? Opening Compuggedon a few years ago, opening Bumblebee's this month and uh, graduating from NYU back in the day with honors.

if you had to trade lives temporarily with one of your friends, who would it be and why? what's the first thing you'd do with your new life? I think I'd change lives with Connor for a day and try to find some of that zen enlightenment. Sounds really damn good to me.

if you were a marvel character which one would you be? HAHAHAH you are such a dick, man. But uh, hmm. I've always loved Emma Frost, so fuck it, I'll go with her.

what's next on your list of professional goals? what kind of business will be next to join the beatrix empire? I don't really have any other expansion ideas. I kinda like the two I've got so far, but if I WAS to have any new kind of might be a baked goods food truck.

will you watch stargate atlantis with me if barrett says no? I would have but apparently you already watched it.

will you watch stargate sg-1 with me? Sure...but have you already watched this one too?

what's your favorite memory involving both of us? Oh god. Uh. Maybe the first time we all went to a ball game and you got so overexcited when you caught a ball in the stands that you smacked yourself in the face with it. Uncle Jim thought he was gonna be in so much damn trouble with your grandmother 'cause you got a bloody nose and bruised yourself but I volunteered to tell her that I'd fought you instead. And I mean, we got a shit ton of ice cream to placate us all afterward just in case I got hollered at by your grandma...which I did, but it was worth it.

if you had a daemon, what would it be? Uhhhh can it be a griffin? 'Cause I pick a griffin.

what does this quiz say it is? if it's something super lame, how do you feel about that? I got a pine marten. Apparently it means "You are a curious person always up for an adventure! You love traveling and discovering new places, but you will always be there for your friends if they need you." Not too shabby. I'll keep it.

step into my shoes: ask yourself a question you think i'd ask and answer it. I'm still not telling you my bra size. You're gonna go to your grave never knowing for sure.

what future do you think is more likely: a zombie apocalypse, rise of the machines, or mad max? what role do you see yourself playing in any of those dystopian worlds? Shit, aren't we already in a bit of a Mad Max kinda world? Heh...but if we were, I would Furiosa it up, that's all I know.

if you had to relive the same day over and over until you died, like a 'groundhog day' type situation, which day in your past would you pick? how long would you last? My twenty-first birthday when I got my first motorcycle. It was the best, most freeing day ever. I think I could last for an eternity in that day, maybe. Or I'd crash and burn after a couple of weeks.

if you could attend a concert for any musician, living or dead, which would you choose? what would their setlist look like? Nine Inch Nails. I'd want them to play the entirety of the With Teeth album and I'd be satisfied.

would you rather have 500+ small cuts all over your body and jump into a pool of lemon juice or put a toothpick between your big toe nail and the skin and kick a wall as hard as you can? Fuck you. The pool of lemon juice...I guess.

how's the head? It's a swirl of thoughts, song lyrics, melodies and things. I keep it going so it doesn't settle on one thing and dwell. I guess I'll say it's "okay."

what does "rebirth" mean to you? Burning away the old and welcoming in the new with open arms.

what do you see? Two mice holding paws and sticking their tongues out at one another.

what makes you spontaneously twitch? People smacking their lips while eating. Or popping their gum. Or scratching a fork on a plate. Basically noises like that make my eye start twitching and I can't stop it.

do you believe in ghosts? I most certainly do. I'm actually part of a ghost sightings forum.

what's your favorite jim carrey movie? Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

what's your favorite shade of green? Olive green.

if you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be? A manta ray.

why do people consider fish pets? Because they're kinda cute and easy to manage? And maybe everyone just wants to find Nemo.

what's your favorite season? Autumn for all the colors and that crisp chill in the air.

tomato juice, yes or no? Sometimes yes. I have to be in the mood for it.

do you think harrison ford regrets making "indiana jones and the kingdom of the crystal skull"? I think that might be a solid yes, though I'm pretty sure he got peeved when Shia LaBeouf actually admitted it in an interview? But c'mon, that movie was crap.

what is something you have tried, but will never do again? Scallops. I'm just not a fan.

what is something you used to do as a child that you wish you could still do? Be less judgmental.

are you a troublemaker? the stirrer of pots? Oh, I am. I definitely am. No shame here.

would you rather live in a small house with an amazing view, or a massive mansion in a subdivision? I'll take the view. Fuck the mansion. I lived in a house that was way too big for just three people growing up and it wasn't at all what it was cracked up to be, except I had a lotta places I could hide...and a library. I miss the library.

if tomorrow you woke up with a new quality, talent or ability, what would you like it to be? Flying. I'd love to be able to fly on my own.

what's one thing you've learned that most people don't know how to do? Cloverleaf tongue. It's useless as far as abilities go, but I don't think a lotta people can do it? I might be wrong.

which are three 3 physical features you often get complimented on? Uh, my hair, my butt and my lips.

what are you excessively obsessive-compulsive about? Cleanliness. My apartment's pretty immaculate. I do an overall cleaning every single weekend.

which rule are you proud of breaking? My mother once told me never to get a tattoo because it'd ruin the natural canvas of my body. Sorry not sorry.

what we doing this weekend? Well apparently we're going to a water park in New Hampshire. Are you ready? 'Cause I am so ready.

best dessert you have ever had? Chocolate creme brulee.

if you had your own talk show, who would your first three guests be? Trent Reznor, Marilyn Manson and Maria Brink.

what do you look for in a friend? The ability to laugh like idiots, to challenge each other, to always have one another's backs and you know, to be the friend that would help hide the body.

what was the best thing that happened to you this past weekend? At the time you asked this, it would've been opening up my dance studio. So far, more people have signed up than I could've imagined and I'm ready to burst with pride.

when you were in grade school, what did you want to be when you grew up? Why? I wanted to be a professional ballet dancer because dance was my favorite form of expression. For the most part, it still is.

if you were to perform in the circus, what would you do? Maybe something aerial, with ribbons? Or hah, lion taming.

what is the best gift anyone's ever given to you? My uncle bought me the building that now houses my cafe and nothing's beaten that since.

what is the single best thing that's happened to you in the past year? Seeing my dream come true and finally getting the courage to open Bumblebee's. So far, so good.

who was the last person you texted? what did the text say? A person. It said something private.

who was the last person who texted you? what does the text say? Same person. Same answer.

what do you do to relax at the end of a stressful day? I usually go run a bath, put on some classical tunes and read.

what's one thing you wish you could change about your life right now? I have to pick just one thing? Erm. My way of handling certain situations that should be, uh, handled with more care.

you're stuck in an elevator with your worst enemy. who is it and what do you do? It's me, myself and I. So we have a nice long chat.

what was the last thing you cooked? Pork carnitas. They were sublime.

what are you listening to right now? Angel Haze's "Crown"

what's something you have a very strong opinion about? Gay marriage, women's rights and equality in general. An amalgamation of those things because nowhere should it be stated that the "powers that be" get to tell anyone who to love, what to do with their bodies or whether they're included because of race, religion, nationality, et cetera.

what would someone have to do in order to catch your attention? More often than not, be silly. Make me laugh. Or have the ability to carry on a decent conversation without even once looking at their phone.

how do you feel about unicorns? Unicorns are badass. Have you SEEN the end of Cabin in the Woods? If you haven't, you should.

how far would you go to make someone feel better? Pretty damn far. I can sometimes overcompensate when showing people I care, but it's part of who I am so I'd rather do a little too much than do nothing at all.

what's your zodiac sign? do you feel that it fits you? Aquarius. I think it's pretty accurate for the most part.

have you ever cheated on someone? have you ever been cheated on? No. I don't think I have, no.

do you have any phobias? Confined spaces. There's nothing that gets me panicked as fast as feeling closed in does.

if the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say? We all have the ability to do harm, it doesn't mean that we should. We also all have the ability to do good, this should not be taken from us no matter what adversities we face. We are human beings. We have to do better.

have you ever felt like just packing up your things and leaving everything behind? Every damn day.

are you the type of person who can shake insults off easily, or do they tend to stick around in your brain and bother you? It depends on who's saying them. Some I can shake loose, others stick with me and play on a loop.

does anyone make you feel inferior? if so, who and why? I've done this to myself far more than anyone else has ever done to me. It's something I'm actively working on changing.

if you could live in any fictional universe, which would you choose? I would be in the Star Wars universe so fast.

who was the last person that made you upset or angry? Haaaa myself. Yeah. I'm an asshole sometimes, ALSO something I'm actively working on changing.

what could you eat every day of the week and never get tired of? Ice cream.

is there someone you wish you could open up to but just can't for fear of them judging you? I thought there was, then I actually DID open up to them and it went far better than I'd expected. Sometimes the little leaps mean the most.

do you wear your heart on your sleeve or do you mainly keep your emotions to yourself? It depends. Sometimes my emotions burst right out of me without me thinking it all through. Other times I'll close up faster than someone can ask me what's wrong.

how long do you think you could go without technology? I love technology, a lot but if I had to, I could go without it for months at a time. I'd just have to choose to do so.

what fictional character do you wish to meet? Han Solo. Just lemme at him.

which fictional character would be the most boring to meet in real life? Luke Skywalker. Sorry. You just...have no real personality. It's not your fault, you were just written that way. Maybe you'll redeem yourself now that you're older and wiser. To be determined, it is.

which of the seven dwarves are you most like? Doc.

name a product or service you love so much that you'd happily be that company's spokesperson. Simple's skincare line.

what personal trait has gotten you in the most trouble? My stubbornness.

what is a sound you love the most? Thunder.

what ridiculous thing has someone tricked you into doing or believing? My cousin told me once to hold my breath to keep angry ghosts from possessing me while passing by cemeteries. I did it once and almost passed out.

what's the most useless talent you have? I'm ambidexterous so I can write with both hands. I mean, it's nice, but it's not really all THAT useful unless I break one of my hands.

if your life had a mascot, what would the mascot be? Mufasa, just so I could hear his voice tell me wondrous lessons.

what mildly annoying curse do you wish you could curse people with? Spontaneous bouts of silence if they were being obnoxious.

what technology from science fiction do you wish existed? TIE fighters.

how have you been this past week? Fluctuating but mostly happy.

where's your favorite place to escape to? It's now become Scotland. I wanna go back there so bad to just get away from everything.

if you could mastermind an invention to restore humanity, what might it be? A mirror that would show people what their actions would result in. Maybe it would make people think more before they acted if they knew the consequences beforehand.

what are some of your favorite things? My puppies, my businesses, my guitar, my book and vinyl collection, various varieties of ice cream and this honey lemon lipbalm I made last week.

describe, like a painting, your favorite feeling? The first snowfall of the year, when everything is so blindingly white that it's hard to look at but it's so pure and shining that you also can't look away.

where are some unusual places you've been? This is a story for another time, but maybe I'll just say Amsterdam. It's a very special kinda place.

which celebrity do you think is the most down to earth? I wanna say Tom Hanks. I love that man. I just wanna hug him.

what would be the worst thing to hear as you are going under anesthesia before heart surgery? "Well that doesn't belong there."

what's the most expensive thing you've broken? A Tiffany lamp. I'm not that apologetic about it though. It became the mosaic top for a table, so all's well that ends well.